Why is life so cruel? So many events which has caused me so much trauma doing my childhood.. I’ve never been as bad as this, never felt so scared of life itself. Being raped at the ages of four to seven by someone you knew so well, your own family member. An open heart surgery months after. I’ve lost my dad because he nolonger wants me or my brother, no longer wants to even message us or tell us he loves us. Instead he’s cheating and being a rat with some old women. Stopping us seeing our baby sister. Sometimes I feel like shutting off. Stop with all of this, stop all the hurting. But life is never that simple is it.