I was not going to write anymore until I have sex well that did not happen no sex but I like to write so here I am my mom be here sunday but I got to do somethings but I didn’t have sex I mean I did everything people wanted me to do go every where people wanted me to be and that was good because I got to be around people and see the sky at night some of the things I can’t do when my mom is here so I am greatful for that but I need some sex it has been awhile and I am not sure of how I fill about that because I want to have sex but not just with any body and I would like to have it more than once I thought that I was going to have some last Friday and the whole weekend but not that didn’t happen so I am trying every thing to keep my mind off sex but my body need some touching from a man so I am going to keep doing any thing I can to keep from filling the need for sex that’s all I know to do but it’s like every day I fill the need for sex and I have no way to do this before my mom comes back I can’t have sex when she is here that’s why I was trying to do this last weekend once she comes here I won’t get another chance unless I go some where else but I can’t leave her for more than thirty minutes to an hour so that’s that …..