I think its hard living life when you look forward to doing stuff, but can’t cause there’s always someone in the way. That’s pretty much how I feel right now. Ed Sheeran is performing on Jan 18, 2013- Friday. My dad actually said I could go, but he still hasn’t bought me my tickets. It sucks because he always told me that if I tell someone that I’m gonna do something, I have to stick to it no matter what, if I don’t mean what I say, why say it in the first place. Seeing Ed Sheeran was going to be my Christmas and birthday present. That was the least I could ask for. Now, I’m gonna end up getting nothing and I’m about to turn 16. My dad would rather buy a $300 watch than see his child be happy. He’s letting me down. I’m wasting my life. the only life I’ll ever live is unraveling before my eyes. My dad always told me to tell him about my problems and what I go through, but when I do, I roughly get judged. I keep my feelings in. That’s probably why I look dead all the time. I often seek for some help within the people whom I love, but even they don’t seem to care about what I go through and I hate to bother them with my insecurities. I know for a fact that if I ever left, No one will notice.