i’m so fed up of acting happy of laughing and smiling all day in school everyone thinks i’m fine. im not. i get home lie in bed and cry. i’m so weak i lie there crying vutting and purging. i hate myself. IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE. im so complicated to stupid and weird for anyone to understand. everytime a boy starts speaking to me i either push them away because i don’t want them to get hurt or get clingy and annoying and always like them more than me. i need help but i can’t tell people my problems because i don’t want to be called an attention seeker. Cutting doesn’t even give me the releif it used to anymore all i can think about is deat. SUicide seem’s like the only option for me it seem’s like the wsaay out they way out of letting everyone down the way out for being paranoid and bullied i tihnk i should go but i can’t fail. not like before if i do it it needs to work, i guess i could stay and loose weight i mean i can’t make myself pretty but i can make myself skinny and there almost the same but i don’t wanna carry on purging i wanna do it propley i’m just pouring my heart out here because i don’t know where else to do it thankyou if you read this x