It does me no good to try to contact you directly. So, I’m hopeful you’ll find me here.
I didn’t throw the pages away- I would never disrespect your work in that way. I want to apologize and explain what happened. No excuses, I know I messed up. I just want you to know what caused it and how I felt about it.
This silence is maybe a good thing, so even if it doesn’t change anything, I did make the effort & I do want you to know.
Please, allow me to do this.
If not, I guess this is goodbye.
Goodbye my love.