I consider myself a strong lady, Ive been through many struggle in my life abuse being one of them. I have a really low self esteem I dont consider myself to be pretty as much as I’m told that I am, I have more insecurities than most people think, I have had relationships many of which that have left me more heart broken than the last, but I met this guy in college my first semester just randomly came and sat beside me and started talking and got my number, weeks went on and I actually started working with him, and liking him even more, he was a big flirt texted me saying “hey beautiful” and things like that but wouldnt date me. I immidiately labled him as a “player” we would get in little arguments and eventually he would not reply for the rest of the day. few more months passed and we hooked up and still didnt date me we then got in a huge fight and he didnt talk much after that, 2 months passed and we were back to normal again and I started dating someone he immidiately acted jealous and always said he missed me and started hanging out with me more which made my boyfriend jealous I ended it with my boyfriend after 3 months and we just seem to be getting closer and closer he stays at my house occasionally, he comes over and hangs out, we go see movies and stuff but were still not in a relationship. it really sucks because people from work consider us together because they say they can see there is something between us but its like he cant give up the “single life” or the other girls. i dont know but its so confusing and I feel like each day I spend with him I start falling for him. And I cant just not talk to him because he’s my best friend I care alot about him, he make my day a little bit brighter each time I see his face. Im really scared Im falling in love with someone it seems I cant even have!!!