John,
i wanted to make a very simple and basic amends . . .
i am working 12 steps in Recoveries Anonymous . . .
and recently in my fourth step works . . .
i was recalling a moment from middle school . . .
a time when Michael Amir and i used school science projects as snowboards to ride down stairs . . .
and basically ruined them . . .
i remember when i was scolded in front of class you said that you worked really hard on yours and that there was some real hurt in your voice . . .
i didn't do school projects at that time because i thought they were uncool and unhip . . .
i am sorry for doing that . . .
even though it might be water under bridge . . .
something so tiny might make a big difference in my understanding of this spiritual process . . .
. . . other thing was that time that we were both hanging out with Terra?
and i was trying to sleep with her . . .
we both seemed to be and i just wanted to get rid of you so i could be alone with her . . .
that was not cool of me and i myself learned from being on other side of myself in similar situation where i was cast as a third wheel . . .
that was not so cool . . .
anyhow whether you remember this or not . . .
i want to apologize if i caused you any distress or any kind of troublesomeness in your heart . . .
i did not mean to hurt you directly, i was simply pursuing a will that was my own and not of my HP . . .
i am so glad that i have somewhere to write you regarding this and i hope it reaches you in good conscience . . .
please let me know if there is anything i can do to make these amends more meaningful to you or anything that would exact harm done in any way . . .
i am so glad that we had this talk and i am always available to you if there is anything else you need to discuss . . .
Sincerely,
Xanther St. Gregory