my whole life has been a rollercoaster of hurt and pain,
of sorrow and disdain.
hate is a pitiful feeling that i feel towards nobody but my own damn self,
and it grows stronger every time i look in the mirror and see myself.
but now i do not even have to look in the mirror,
but look at the messages you’ve sent me and everything is clearer.
i am a disappointment and a nuisance in your life,
which saddens my heart since you wanted me to be your wife.
but i cannot disregard your feelings, that would only cause me to hate myself more.
today i let you go, the one i have feelings for.