GOD,
I JUST WROTE CATHY BECAUSE MY PARANOIA IS GETTING INTENSE.
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO COPE WITH IT.
I DON'T HAVE ANY TOOLS.
I HAVE BEEN EVERYTHING TRYING AS POSSIBLE.
I HAVE BEEN WRITING ALL OF THE 12 STEP FELLOWSHIPS TO MAKE SURE I AM NOT BETRAYING MYSELF AND GOD.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I HOPE CATHY DOESN'T GET UPSET.
IS THIS JUST ME BLAMING PEOPLE FOR MY OWN SEXUAL COMPLEXITIES AND DESIRES?
I NEED TO GET SOME HELP FOR THESE ILLNESSES AND NEUROSES THAT THE 12 STEPS ARE SUPPOSEDLY SUPPOSED TO GET RID OF.
HELP GOD GET OUT OF GODS WAY.
I AM POWERLESS OVER PARANOIA AND MY LIFE HAS BECOME UNMANAGEABLE.
I AM WILLING TO TURN MY LIFE OVER TO THE CARE OF GOD BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO THIS. I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING ELSE.
I WOULD LIKE GOD TO REMOVE ALL THESE DEFECTS OF CHARACTER BECAUSE IF HE DOESN'T I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO GET THROUGH ANOTHER SECOND OF EXISTENCE, SO FORTH.
PLEASE WATCH OUT FOR ME. I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM.
SILENTLY ANONYMOUS,
-THE ARCHER