GOD,
I JUST HAD A REALLY AWFUL BOWEL MOVEMENT BUT IT WAS OPTIMISTIC BECAUSE WITH ME I HAD THE FAMILIAR AND WAS READING ISANDORNOS CHAPTER.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT THE FAMILIAR.
I AM POWERLESS OVER IT AND I AM COMPLETELY UNMANAGEABLE.
I WANT TO PRAY FOR THE STRENGTH TO PERSERVERE, TO CONTINUE, TO DIGRESS AND GIVE UP ALL HOPE! BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO THIS!
I AM GOING TO TRY AND MAKE THESE EMPTY RITUALSS A PART OF THE DAILINESS IN ACTIVITY.
-GOING TO CHURCH
-RECONCILIATION
-READING
-WRITING HERE
-WATCHING BATES MOTEL
-NOT SKIPPING MEALS
-HAVING FUN COOKING
BUT IT IS JUST SO ANNOYING THAT NO-ONE IS REALLY TALKING TO EACH OTHER. I NEED LIKE A MAGNOLIA MOMENT, FROM THAT MOVIE, WHERE EVERYONE CLICKS INTO THE AMY MANN SONG AND EVERYONE IS CONNECTED AND NOTHING IS MISINTERPRETED NOR MISREPRESENTED.
I AM HOPELESS GOD, IN THE NAME OF GOD, I EXPRESS MY HOPELESSNESS FOR WHAT IT IS.
HOPELESSNESS.
I AM WILLING TO GET OUT OF GODS WAY IF GOD WILL JUST HELP ME LEARN HOW TO DO IT GRAACIOUSLY AND HOPELESSLY.
OUT OF THE WAY GOD, I AM GETTING. OUT OF GODS WAY..
SILENTLY ANONYMOUS,
-THE ARCHER