God,
I am powerless over laziness and my life has become unmanageable.
I don't know how to get past my laziness. I have started to think it is the way I am supposed to be.
The Dude from the Big Lebowski is supposedly the laziest thing on earth. I am starting to feel like that. But I shouldn't beat myself up, right? I should accept myself with unconditional surrender and move towards the light at the end of the tunnel? Everyone is saying not to because they want to keep me here but the light is God and not the deadlights and the ghost lights of Satan. I have to move closer to the light so that I can have God remove all these defects of character that are plaguing my toes, butthole, fingertips and eyeballs. I have to accept that I can learn how to be wise and make wise decisions, and I can learn how to courage myself into couragelessness. I can become willing enough to not know the cloud of unknowing anymore. I can get free of these acts of surrender if I just give my will to God to have him do with me what he likes. Which I am usually not so unsatisfied with.
Silently Anonymous,
-The Archer