God,
It is so hard to not blame people for my problems. Everyone I see seems like a good candidate for attaching all of my problems to them. It feels like I can't control it.
Am I ever going to be quote unquote free?
Broken. Please help me get some clarity, serenity and so forth. I've been babystepping I'm doing the work I'm not a slacker. Check it out I'm in pretty bad shape come on please please please gimme gimme gimme I need I need I need, gimme gimme gimme.
I am in so much pain God.
How the f*** am I going to make it out of here?
I can't seem to get past the din and the clamor.
If I'm already dead then how big a deal could suicide be?
I don't think hell can be much worse than this?
If God sent someone over to shoot my head off or something, I'd be okay with it. If God wants (rape my ass?) I think that's beth talk.
If God wants to kill me what is the best way that I can die more? God what way does God want me to die in?
Dad said Jesus already died so we don't have to get cruicifed or anything so I won't worry about that, unless God wants me to! I'm down to do it if we all like totally need it. I just don't get why I'm here. This is a waste of time.
I don't know if God really cares if I exit this body. I feel like I'm just being harvested. I don't have anything left to give!
I don't know what to do. Nobody can seem to hear me. How does God want me to go? Should I do it like David Wallace? And re-write THE PALE KING?
How do I get there?
Perhpaps once I get there I won't want to kill myself anymore, or what if its all a hoax? His death. If his death is a hoax that must mean that alot of people are covering up that he's not-dead.
(This is annoying.)
(Jusst kill me already.)
(This is a waste of time.)
I wish we could just get over this play and be done with it. Why does it have to drag on for so friggin long!/>!???
Nothing even happens!
Silently Anonymous,
-The Archer