God+,
Please help me become unjealous about the cast and crew of the program blue bloods.
Help me accept that I cannot entertain anyone nearly as much as TV actors can do. I cannot stand a chance in their lighting.
I have to accept that without God I am less than nothing.
Please help me get closer to understanding that I cannot compete with the TV for attention from THE FAMILIAR. Help me accept that there is nothing that I can be doing accept what I am doing in this moment and presence time and presence space.
Help me be exactly that I am. I want to remain in this stillness, solitude and emptiness of death that I can do nothing to change accept watch and see what happens, so forth.
Help me to accept that I did not cause the entertainment, I cannot control the entertainment and I cannot cure the entertainment.
Please let me know that I am what I am, exactly as it is.
I can't do this without God.
I am powerless over jealousy. Please help me heavenly father and lord God, help me remove these defects of emptiness, silence and despair.
So forth.
Silently Anonymous,
-The Archer
(is this like a shame hit?)