God+,
It is very obvious here that I am addicted to acquiring things, objects, shopping etc. This fits in with my program Spenders, Debtors, Gamblers and Workaholics Anonymous.
Workaholics because it takes a lot of work for me to scour the web to find the things I am looking for.
Debtors because I am in 2500 monies deep in debt of a credit card (as well as with owing uncle greg the 500 monies from the oxy binge, so forth) and because I am willing to take risks by living the dictum, one is too many and a thousand is never enough as well as monies grow back, but time does not. The risk seems worth the while.
Gamblers because a part of me knows it isn't going to solve the core issues (or whatever. I don't know what this core they're talking about is)and because I am simply gambling with items to solve this equation of happiness. Trying to find out the perfect code that will make all of it make sense and I get adrenaline highs and high levels of excitement by seeing something peculiar, curious and cute. And it ends up putting me deeper into a false desire that just simply infinitely goes on forever, and ever and ever, so forth.
Spending because I will go to any lengths for victory over unhappiness. And I will stop at nothing to acquire something like a naked intent towards God. And when I am in the stick (THICK) of it. Of spending, I feel free for one point one seconds from the hauntedness of the entrapment of life in death, so forth.
I don't care if this makes any sense, I just needed to get it on the virtual paper. I feel sad that it is so lame and little-girly but it is true. With Xanther as my wittness.
Silently Anonymous,
-The Archer