God,
I masturbated last night while I was half awake. I feel like I've failed again. What is wrong with me? Am I a pig? An idiot? A stupos?
If God wants me to stop masturbating myself I am willing to allow Him to gentle create a space that might make it easier to refrain. If not, I don't mind doingg it, as it releases a lot of teension and angsty-anxiety.
It's up to God. Not to Me. I think I went near about a week or more this time.
Okay. I am getting out Gods way in the name of Christ, Jesus.
Silently Anonymous,
-The Archer
P.S. The point is not to live like a saint (we will never be saints) ie it is easy to be skinny on a desert island.