God,
Am I wrong?
Is what I'm experiencing valid?
Is God trying to kill me? I mean sister G. Is this an oedipus thing? (anti-oedipus?)
I might die if I don't move to New Zealand?
These are questions that keep assaulting Me.
I don't know how to refrain from responding to them without Gods help.
I prayed about the sacred butthole this morning to get a reprieve from the emptiness of Gods emptiness.
Please help achieve the emptiness of no-enlightenment and no mindlessness.
I am so dirty, destroyed and despairing?
I hope I can call the SIA phone line this morning. If I can access a mobile telephonically. sister g. might but I'm embarassed to hear her do a no at me.
I might just wait for M. to get here and see if she has willingness in her heart at that particular moment. Otherwise, I can get out of Gods way and allow the emptiness of God to save me, guide me, and lead me to still greater forms of emptiness.
Amen, Amen, Amen.
Silently Anonymous,
-The Archer