im someone who was very lonely in my early years of school life. now that im older, all of my friends just don't feel like friends. my friend that i thought was my real friend went to a different school to me and we only talk ever so often. also my friend that i think of my real friend, thinks of me as their 'emotional animal support' friend, keyword 'animal'. i just laugh it off but it does really hurt me inside. the first few times i was fine with it because i think they were joking but hearing more and more just broke me more and more. all my friends are really just friends of my other friends. i get invited to parties and stuff but it feels like im invited because i hangout with them. to mention, im not a very social person, i stay quiet about 80% of the time with other people besides myself but to my defense i don't know what to say most of the times. im not really in with all the inside jokes they have in the group. i mainly hangout with my mom during the weekend and im not really invited to friend get togethers. i haven't told anybody about my feelings before. i just feel lonely.