I don’t understand why the hell I exist here.I had a dream which broke. unfortunately I don’t have courage money and patience to build that dream again.i am no good in studies,neither I am a good daughter to her parent.I am short tempered and I get easily irritated which keeps people away from me.i am scared of everything like being spotted on public,like on being called by an unknown number,scared of bad marks,with stage performance,talking to unknown people and list goes on.I am tired of this,& my life.I want to go to some kind of monasteries to seek peace buy I am unable to.can somebody explain how long am I gonna survive like this?