Hearing people talk about this scale always messes me up. People throwing numbers on people based on how fit, how thin, how tall, how big-breasted, how plump-assed just drives me up the wall. Obviously I wouldn’t feel that way if I was considered attractive. I was raised to not bother with my looks since there was lots to be desired and focus on making a career for myself. I’m an adult, I have a nice place, I work as an architect, I dress nicely, blah blah blah, but I’m held back by negative beliefs about myself. I think I’m a 4 at best and I only think that way because I hear so much damn conversation about these scales all the time. The part that makes it worse is that I don’t think my partner loves me anymore because of my 4-status. It’s heart-breaking knowing that you love someone more than they love you and it could be changed if I was more attractive. I feel stuck. And I wonder if we should separate so they can find someone who will satisfy them emotionally, physically, and visually.