my dad left my mom and got married when we (i and my elder sister) were kids of 7 and 11 years old.Years later my mom had an affair with her elderly office colleague who had 4 kids who was not divorced and had a typical uneducated wife.we got easily attached with their children.Years rolled on when my sister fell in love with one of his son.With a little struggle they finally got married. My mom continued her affair with that elderly man till date.I am 23 years old now and having got such ruined childhood and lost family love i feel desperately alone. It was difficult to make friends because I became more angry and rude to them.For most of my school and college life i stood alone and unhappy.Since i dont earn so i stay with my mom,grandma and my sister(we don’t share a good bond) and her 2 little ones.However, my biggest relief was when I met a guy online 3 years ago and we fell in love. we are in LDR and things are going great.But I always fear that he will leave me as others did.This fear is so much that my mind cooks up false imaginative story of our breakup.He is a good responsible guy and I have already explained my fears to him but even being assured by him I am still in a fearful and desolate state.