for so long now , ive been dependent on you. that is a direct result of your very own words and actions.
but that doesnt mean that i am invisible or that i dont need closeness , consideration , companionship , honesty , friendship , kindness or thoughtfulness from you to say the least.
you make me feel like less of a human being.
you make me feel like less of a woman and less than attractive.
when i try to express to you how your actions towards me – or lack thereof make me feel , you yell at me and say i just want to start a fight.
if i cant talk to You about my feelings and our personal situation , who can i talk to about it all???
ive been reduced to less of who i was , feeling like i dont matter and i have no reason to be.
i know i need a change. a change for the better , the good. but without you allowing me to go on and live life as who i am , i dont see any reason to go on…
your attempts to convince me that i will be nothing without you , that i cannot make it alone and no one else will ever want me for me are quite hurtful.
i feel like all you want to do is hurt me and make me suffer.
ive tried everything i can think of with you. ive suggested couples counselling but according to you , there is no need.
ive left , came back. given you space. stood by your side.
it seems nothing i can ever do or say , not even who i am is enough for you.
i cant keep going through each day alone , wishing i had a special someone who loved me back as much as i love them.
i just cant do it anymore. its been way too long and its killing me.
What – DOES anyone in this so-called relationship achieve from your neglectful , manipulative ways?
i suck at thinking that anyone can actually love me for me….