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So I don’t know if anyone is gonna read this and I don’t really care I just want to let it out. I’m a girl and I live in a very sexist country and society but my parents are sexist too but they’re not the worst. My dad have beaten me before twice but not that bad but I think it effected me and my confidence a little. My parents are always comparing me to my cousin and they always tell me how disappointing I am but I don’t really care because they don’t really know my cousins as much as I know them so It doesn’t matter. I have a problem with connecting with people I don’t know how to show my love to the people I love and my parents always call me heartless, cold, selfish and self centered. Today I tried to share my thoughts with my parents but they didn’t respect what i said and started saying that I’m wasting my time with these toughts and I started crying because I really cared about this topic which is about women abuse and how one of my close friends got sexually harassed by her uncle and her father didn’t care. After that my father started yelling at me and saying that he was wrong to let me sit on the enternet alot and he threatened to kick me out of the house if I didn’t get “better” and started saying how I don’t care about them and care about other people. Now I’m just scared I don’t feel like I have anyone to stick with me even if I failed.