Dear period, thank you for making me emo (ok, mayb not entirely your fault, but partly contributed by you too), actually mostly caused by password.
honestly, i dunno why i bothered putting myself in the same situation, over and over again.
drink –> sleep –> felt sweet for mayb 9 hours –> wake up –> pretend as if nothing had happened –> i m out of his sight –> no news from him –> hate him –> konon living a goof-without-him-life –> deep down miss him like crazy –> tried very best to meet up with him –> drink –> sleep –> felt sweet for mayb 9 hours –> u know what will happen next, the vicious cycle.
living in denial, i will only rmb the time when he treated me very nice, the time when i got all his attention, and choose to forget the time i feel hurt..
i guess i just choose not to believe that i m a rebound, who is always conveniently around him, and can satisfy his needs.. sigh.. i do not wan to believe that he is such person.. but i guess i hav to believe now.. sigh.. move on www