These days haven’t been bad and they haven’t been quite on the cusp of good either but, I thought about this girl a lot. I’ve been thinking about her months now and she’s breaking me my heart. I wish to be close but the power called fear is whats holiding me back, I know my feelings for this girl but, does she know hers?
All I wish to seek is the complete answer of if I’m still in love with you or not. Letting my heart beat fast and toes began to tap, nervousness takes control over me and possess my suit ever so elegantly and smooth. Feeling it whip around everywhere, grace upon grip, squeezing like that of a rope. I want her and I am still ever so in love with you. I don’t look for you anymore, but, I still pray for you. What do I want? All I want is you. I was asked if I was still in love with you, or her for whoever is reading, the answer surprised not only me when the words left my lips. Not a “yes” not a “no” either. But an inconclusive “I don’t know.” Too much a “I know what I feel for you” to be a no and too much of a “it’s what I can’t do.” To be a yes. Torn and tossed like a doll, raggedy and rigged I found my edges soon to become.
I love you.