im starting school soon and im a nobody. i used to be popular and now my self esteem is so destroyed due to betrayals and gossip from “popular girls” that i used to hang out with. i dont have any more confidence on how to handle school or even talking to anyone anymore. going to school as break is ending is hard, i have been well alone for the break but the thought of going back scares me. i feel like a burden all the time, worthless. its 3 am and i cant sleep, i have so much burdens and i cant stay focused, its hell.
i know im not the only one feeling like this but i cant help but feel the worst, although i know im not. i want to cry but i cant. im so scared. freling alone for partnering, feeling alone during lunch break. sitting alone on the bus, telling my friends abt things makes me feel like a big burden. i really hope that someone in my vlass will be willing to be my friend. i try hard to socialize and be normal again but i can only hope. ifinally realise what anxiety is and realised how once i’ve been hurt i dont think i’ll ever be the same again