24-03-12(21:50:36)
You know what, life is pretty good. It’s a great day outside nice and warm. Hearing the motorcycles and construction work being dun kids laughing birds singing making sun tea outside. Boyfriend and i got back together and things are working out great. Parents and i are getting along did yard work outside today had [..more..]
03-03-12(16:31:06)
Is it love that I feel towards her? Is it just an illusion, a fantasy, an idea that I’m in love with? I don’t think it’s HER I’m attracted to, even if she was… is… the objective, so to speak. Am I in love with the idea of being in love with her? Then why [..more..]
29-02-12(23:13:12)
I’m so sorry America. I am so f***ing sorry. I’ve let you down. I’ve taken advantage of you. I’ve let you become a mess. I’ve been scared. I lie to myself. I lie to others. I’m full of myself. I’m act proud. I’m truly ashamed. I wanted to be everything you want. I wanted to [..more..]
29-02-12(11:01:41)
What is it in life we seek? It’s different for everyone and not one person wants exactly the same thing. I have thought about this many times and it still doesn’t seem any easier. One person to the next has different thoughts on almost everything. Some people want that perfect family life where they have [..more..]
29-02-12(3:09:30)
im tired of not being happy with what i look like….i tried to make myself puke today…it didnt work but im sad that i became so desperate that i stooped to that level…im afraid imma try it again and succeed then not be able to stop..
18-02-12(23:01:59)
I feel lonely. I love my boyfriend more than anything or anyone else in the whole world. And I know he loves me but he never shows me that he loves me. He tells me how much he loves me everyday but he never does anything to demonstrate his love. Just one gesture of love [..more..]
14-02-12(21:39:13)
Sitting on work. Crazy day. I work here almost a year. But still have so many questions. Not knowing something about that and that. This makes me very pissed. I have to know everything. But that’s too much to handle for one man. One should work for about 10 years to know everything about his [..more..]
31-01-12(11:31:48)
what the F have i done….omg i am so confused now…..worse than ever before…5 yrs of waiting and now theres no going back…. it didnt at all work out how i wanted nor where i wanted …..nothing…… i dont even know how i feel anymore……confused isnt the word for it…. what the f have i [..more..]
23-01-12(3:43:04)
back to life again, none. thought maybe after almost 30 years of marriage it would be our time to enjoy each others company but not so. i do everything i can for him, the kids do everything they can and never complain. still he is a grump from hell just about every day. he has [..more..]
21-01-12(4:42:47)
The general thought is that when you go home, everything should be relaxing and nurturing as you have probably spent your whole day either in school or at work stressing about everything. What happens if the only supposed sanctuary you have has now become another unpleasant place. It’s sad, and sometimes it would just never [..more..]