11-09-11(7:45:12)
I am lost in this moment. Lost in time. Just want to sleep and dream about the old days. Just want to sleep and dream about the way it was supposed to be. I can’t cry, cause someone might see. So I have to keep this inside of me. I heard a song the other [..more..]
02-09-11(10:11:00)
So today is your 28th birthday… I sent you a message to wish you a happy birthday and you didnt even have the decency to reply with a simple thank you… Ok so you dont want me in that way but i dont see the problem with being friends but obviously your not that mature [..more..]
02-09-11(10:07:30)
So today is your 28th birthday… I sent you a message to wish you a happy birthday and you didnt even have the decency to reply with a simple thank you… Ok so you dont want me in that way but i dont see the problem with being friends but obviously your not that mature [..more..]
31-08-11(3:52:07)
man why do you want to get drunk so bad, is it because everyone else is doing it? like seriously, or is it because of the way it makes you feel. or because you want to have more fun. yeah sure i can understand that but it just eludes why you want to do it. [..more..]
24-08-11(9:57:36)
Dear Ken, You have no idea how happy you once made me. How much you could make me laugh. For a while I even thought “Hey, here is one person who won’t tire you out. Not like the others, the ‘squad’ members who just left you in the dirt.” It’s not that I’m being smothered, [..more..]
24-08-11(9:43:06)
I want to die. And not in an overdramatic 17 year old girl kind of way. I’m not going to act on it. I never will. I’m definitely not gutsy enough. Today I did something that was my personal equivalent of coming out, and it definitely did not feel good, and afterwards all I really [..more..]
22-08-11(23:59:29)
right thats it, im done puttin my life on hold for sum1 who will never want me the way i want her, she see’s me as a friend and from now on a friend is at she’s gonna et nothing more and im gonna start enjoyin myself n stoppin myself likin other people coz im [..more..]
21-08-11(2:06:16)
Zach and I looked really cute as a couple, and I don’t care if it’s over. I still feel that way.
18-08-11(5:51:16)
I don’t know why I do this, but I allow myself to get depressed. To become so hung up on other people’s outer appearances and lives that I look back on mine with hatred and disgust and feel nothing but inferiority. It’s not like this all the time- I often have moments of happiness and [..more..]
11-08-11(8:00:09)
I feel like im putting too much thought into this.. i wont read what you put until im done because i dont want it to change what im writing. i still remember, freshman year, around november i think. i told you how you could have anyone you wanted. and you told me “well when you [..more..]