I have a fear of trust
Basicly i think everyone is against me that any moment now my friends will be like we dont like you leave us alone and i will be alone forever. I feel like everyone secretly hates me and that everyone is using me and pretending. I know i am a bit of a stand ofish person, [..more..]
Baby Bear
I met him in 7th grade he never really got my attention he was nice and chill but i didnt like him until 8th grade came. we had 7th period together and he used to blow me kisses across the class room and smile at me and wink to,i thought it was wierd and i [..more..]
I’m too tired.
Life is getting repetitive for me. Life is boring. I’m boring. People think I’m boring. Even my ‘best friend’ left me. She’s just distancing herself away from me. I don’t even know what I did wrong. People think I’m lame, awkward, a nerd. I’m just shy and insecure. I feel like pursuing a music career [..more..]
Frustrated
I feel like such a bad, selfish person. Lately my mood has been so up and down – like one minute I’m really grateful to be alive and the next I just wish that I could either be a completely different person or stop existing altogether. Everything feels so out of control. I’m way too [..more..]
Alone ..
Can you go through life alone? I’m feeling alone as hell and i’m tired of trying to be somebody’s friend, or whatever it is. I don’t really hang out with a lot of people and i have no one to talk to.. Can a person really handle life like that? In the end you’re standing [..more..]
come back
i used to look at people who fell in love and admire them. i would try and figure out how its done. how the process begins. if there was a pattern of some sort, or a warning sign that it was happening. its really just all about how you feel. feelings. thoughts. actions. theres so [..more..]
Physical Attraction vs. Spiritual Attraction
It’s unfortunate that we are incapable of ignoring all physical attractions and of instead peering into the personality/spirit of another person. People usually attempt to get together/exchange numbers when they see someone with good looks. I wish that instead we were made with the ability to somehow glimpse into another person’s character, and that physical [..more..]
i love you
i miss you. and i realize i love you more than i thought i did now that i havent spoken to you for several days! I didnt know that would ever happen to me. I never ever want to lose you. I miss you so much I just don’t know what to do. I dont [..more..]
Trust.
The one person, my Mother, that I only ever truly trusted. Commited suicide. I don’t think that there is really an answer on how to re-learn everything. But it seems that trusting people is now my biggest problem. I can’t understand this. How am I supposed to trust anyone? Why does it seem like people [..more..]
do you ever wonder?
Do you ever have that feeling like you’re like is completely out of control and you have no idea where your life is heading? Do you ever just think to yourself, who am I? What am I even doing? I feel like that every second of every day. I honestly don’t have any words to [..more..]