What If?
A girl I knew my whole life, she was 21, committed Suicide. My mom got a call, she screamed into the phone ‘What?’ and then broke down crying. I didnt get it. She hung up and looked at me, told me that girl was dead. I didnt react. I couldnt. All I said was, ‘Who [..more..]
I Don’t get it anymore
My parents don’t get it;(. I try my best at everything; good grades,student council president, and in national junior honor society, good student but it’s never good enough. They always say I lack common sense. I always say things before I think and I got in trouble because of that a few days ago. My [..more..]
Passion where are you?
Every morning I wake up, happy to wake up I might add, wondering whats next? What is to become of my life? Some hours I’m happy, some hours I’m alone. I sit in the dark thinking, thinking too much. Worrying, worrying about things that have not occurred. So many what ifs. What is wrong? What [..more..]
Terrible
God i am just terrible with friends i mean im not mean or anything its just that when it comes to making friends im the number one loser and my feelings i have a hard time talking about my feelings i mean how can you let a guy who kisses you goooooo im a f**king [..more..]
Outkast
Everyday I get ready try to get perfect and go to school. People always talk about the same thing 1 Direction, Hipsters, and “Pop” Music. But me? I’m what people call a “Outkast” It’s true people make fun of me, call me a loser and try to piss me off. And yet they succeed. They [..more..]
I just cant express
My Love, I hate it when im so upset with you, and I cant tell you how I feel because I dont want to make you feel guilty. I know you try to make me happy, and you do. Its just the little things that hit me the most. I am not good at sharing [..more..]
My Past .
my past hits me like a tornado, something hurtful, its there it never fades away like something you can’t get rid of. Nobody said it was easy, but everyday i wake up ready to forget about it and move on. It’s pretty hard. in 7th grade i got bullied. By this chick who hated me. [..more..]
Birthday Musings
I turn 20 tomorrow. I’ve always found birthday celebrations frivolous, but, this year, I’m struck with some odd sensation of guilt upon changing my age. Since I began university two years ago, I have struggled with an eating disorder and with each stepping stone in my life – New Years, the start of winter, the [..more..]
No One Cares
My sister doesn’t care about me anymore. We used to be so close, and then she got a boyfriend. He is the worst person in the world. He called me a joke and said i deserve for him to be mad at me when me and my sister were in a fight. Siblings fight, but [..more..]
i dont know
I don’t know but why does it happen.when everything began to fall in place there is a storm in life which make sure that i realise that there is no happiness in my life, that i on’t deserve to be happy. every small smile that i managed on my face has a great fear behind [..more..]