Thoughts of lost Buddhist
What I’m trying to imagine is that our physical body. What we percieve as us. Our body is simply a vessel of sorts, a vehicle we drive. Let’s say that one day we’re at home, a place we love and feel safe. Suddenly we find ourselves in this new place. We like this new place, [..more..]
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i missed him so bad. he’s currently out of town, again. i mean, we’ve known each other for years and this would probably be the longest time i have been separated from him. i know he’s been working hard on preparing a new big project since august. some said he catch a terrible flu that [..more..]
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my parents divorced when i was 8 and i’ve never seen my biggest brother since then. he stayed with my mom while my second brother, older sister, and i stayed with my dad. my second brother and my sister are now both currently studying over the country. dad is barely home and I’m always alone. [..more..]
i’m tired
why is it so hard to be just happy? now i know i’m bulimic, what’s next? who to consult to? where can i get the help? i think i should just become a nun. why is life so complicated? didn’t realize that i’ve been struggling with it for ~3yrs. mommy, being away from you gave [..more..]
My crush is my brother friend
OMG Let me tell you from the start, I have this crush that I like him much but he had a girlfriend so I thought I shouldn’t like him anymore. Cause I don’t want to get into anyone love life. By the time I got closer to my brother I found out there was this [..more..]
always the same
It is not how it used to be waiting for someone that will never come is the only thing i can do now.There is no going back into the past but if i could then i would even if it meant not knowing you because without you life seems to be nothing.(ill still be waiting [..more..]
look down upon me
my family won’t take my decisions seriously and they look down on me when I want to challenge myself to become better. They tell me to take an easier road and they laugh when I say I want to do this.
My Heart Hurts.
I am in love with this boy and watching him love someone else… kills me inside. Why did God put me on this earth? To watch me struggle? I will never find love because I am always a second option and that hurts so badly.
Life
Life has been so confusing lately. I still remember last year, when my life was absolutely normal. I had very little friends that I would hang out with at school, and almost no social life. Then it all changed somehow, even I don’t know how, but I started meeting new people and making new friends. [..more..]
naked february 07th 2013
every body is bunned up I have to keep the faith that I have inside of me I keep trying to be strong and put my foot down for my own self to fill better but I keep having to break or say give in I don’t want temptation causing trouble for me with the [..more..]