please don’t be offended
hello world I have videos on youtube and we are talking about a lot of things people just having fun not even thinking about anything negative just laughing and talking singing and more family bonding time so to all that viewed our videos just know that were normal and observing our surrounding and discussing how [..more..]
its been 3 years
It was a long day, longer then one i can remember in a long time but at the same time went by so quickly. I found myself doing what i always do when im upset. i push people away, or am rude to the people im closest to. My mother died 3 years ago today, [..more..]
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what am i really waiting for!!
Ventilating
I thought marriage was supposed to be about learning how to learn to live and love each other one day at the time….. I was wrong every moment I remember about marriage was hard but not only that but I have a son that im raising on my own and at times I feel like [..more..]
Untitled.
Sometimes, I look at how many people were only my friend because they needed something from me, and I feel a sudden overwhelming urge to kill myself. People that I used to love, who I valued…I feel embarrassed. I feel like a fool for trying to be close to them, and I want to kill [..more..]
I hate myself.
I look at my reflection in the mirror and cry. I take a shower in a full piece swimsuit because I can’t stand the way my body looks. I work my f***ing ass off in the gym and try to eat healthy and yet I stay the same. I hate the way I look. I [..more..]
I miss you
We were bestfriends. I was there for you through everything. Every little problem you had, you vented to me and I did the same. You just dropped off the face of the earth. I talked to you for the first time in months tonight and all you could say was “I dont know what to [..more..]
bring the toys
Sleigh bells! How low can you go? Death row. What a Santa knows. Once again, back is the incredible The rhyme animal The incredible C, Hidden Friend Number One “Five-O” said, “Freeze!” and I got numb Can I tell ’em that I really only had a child’s toy Nerf gun? But it’s the wax that [..more..]
Thankfulness
I recently found out that a friend of a friend’s husband had died. She writes a blog and has spoken on it about how deeply his death effected her and how much she loves him and will never be the same until she sees him again in heaven. She said take every day as it [..more..]
wasting my life.
I do not know where to go or what path to take and I feel like I am going around in circles.