Posted by Anonymous on 2020/03/05 under Love I see a girl with blue eyes, light skin, a dirty blonde hair. I see a girl with brown eyes, brown hair. I see the names of every single girl you've encountered with while we were together. I go insane, my thoughts eat me alive and all I can do this think, why? Why do you think it's okay to do that to me? Why do you think it's okay to give other girls your attention while you're with me? Do they have something I don't? Do you think they can give you more than I already have? You say you don't know why you do it. You say it was stupid of you to let it happen. Yet you continue to do it, you continue to f*** up and f*** my mind up with it. But you don't ever fix it. You do stupid things when you drink, you know I get scared when you do. You seem to love to prove me right every. single. time. I work, I go to school, I bust my ass for a good future for us, but you can't keep your d*** in your pants when im not with you. While im at work or school. I get lonely too when you're not around, but never once have i ever wanted to do the things you've done to me. Yet i continue to stay, why? Because i love you. Almost two years of my life and i tell you all the time, but you obviously don't feel the same. Because you've only said it once and im more than sure you didn’t mean it. I reassure you almost daily and you don't even call me "pretty" anymore..? It haunts me always, Im always insecure now and i never was, i contemplate my worth, my value and my means to you. Yet i don't bother to pick up that conversation because it always ends with you being the victim. Maybe it's god giving me a taste of my own medicine from my past relationship. I just wish you would understand how I feel, make things better. But i'll love you from a distance and will always care for you. I love you A.