Posted by Anonymous on 2018/10/19 under Love 18/10/18
Ok, so he did it again…he's made me believe he likes me back, but including friends that he doesn't usually do those things with, like when we slow danced, but His cousin was there as an attached twin or whatever, but I think he just wanted to dance with me, until I over thought about it, and came to the conclusion that he didn't, and I keep coming to that conclusion, so today…well today was way more than just him and another friend, he did it with a person he hates, he made us twirl, like twirling around as in romantic scenes in movies, but before that he put his arm around my neck, and dropped himself, like if I'd danced with him, and that was the finishing move, but me being oblivious to that fact, just kept looking at him weirdly, and he's stop, but I love it when he does those things, it's why we became friends, because we're so similar, and I looked at him in last lesson, just to see him in a permanent position staring at me. I of corse turned away within half a second, and saw him in the corner of my eye still looking at me, so I'm sitting there with my heart pounding so much, I'm so nervous, seeing him slightly move, I calmed down, but in those few milliseconds i looked at him, he looked so cute, and his eyes were so big and I just wanted to go over there and talk to him, buts that really hard when your opposite each other in the classroom, what's worse, he knows I "used" to have a crush on him, my friends can't keep their mouths shut, and told him that I liked him, but i said I didn't like him anymore just to get them off my back, and it worked, and now I'm not sure if he likes me now, because he told me he likes someone, and it's a girl, so I narrowed it down to three people, and me being the self absorbed b**** I am, put myself in that three, still unsure if he likes me back, AND ITS SO F***ING AWKWARD, how do I get over this, it's gone on for way too long to be a petty crush anymore, wanna know how long?…almost over a year, that's how long, is that a bad thing, or am I insane, help me please, I'm serious…that's sad.