Posted by Anonymous on 2018/09/04 under Love Where do I even began… It all started 17 years ago when it was the day I enter the world. That day another human being who is a complete romantic dork was received into the world. Growing up I can always remember the amazing moments when I would smile so hard that my cheeks would hurt or my heart beating so fast were all caused by the feeling of love taking control of my body. Until I hit my teenager life is when it went downhill, I lost what the meaning of love was or even worse I forgot how it felt. Guys would come in my life and then exit, it occurred every time… But when I met someone who was different but because of my past with love, I had set in my life that he will eventually leave. He didn't. We got to talking and found each other attractive in a steamy firey way like no other but of course it probably felt different for him. As time past I came to see that he didn't plan on leaving and that'll for once he knew me and liked it. His smile. His laugh. His warmth. His personality. Him. All the characteristics and more that I adored every day. But it all has his ending… I'm scared to know where the relationship would go that I needed to let him go and by doing so I would convince him I was unsure about everything when all along I was sure about wanting him. I am sure. It's a journey I want to take and see where it leads. I want to have plenty of sex and sleep next to him. I want to experience crazy s***. Many things I wanted but decided to let it go. Mainly because I'm afraid but I'm afraid of the pain we both might feel if thing end bad. There you go.. Indecisive is my excuse, J.J.