at six years old you took advantage of me, i hate you for what you did to me, i trusted you and you made me feel dirty and unclean, you have continued to live your life without a care in the world but the way you treated me was disgusting. you shouldnt have touched me, you shouldnt have done that. i hate you, i just want to give my young self a hug and tell her it will be alright. and still i havent told anybody what you did. im too scared that nobody will believe me or that nobody will care. i hate you
I had the same thing happen to me by a relative when I was about 13/14. It only happened once, but my whole world was turned upside down. While it was happening I kept begging God to make it stop, please make it stop. Needless to say, I no longer associate with any religion and no longer talk to God. I told my parents immediately. Then I learned one of my parents had suffered this torment their entire childhood, but was hoping this person had changed and desperately wanted me to have a normal life. I thought I could get over it, it was just once. Sadly, over the years I have seen the emotional effect it had on me. I have never and will never be the same. A precious life was taken that day and a hardened shell remains.
thankyou so much for replying to me. i feel the same. it is so difficult to trust people now and i feel like ive been spoiled.