Posted by Anonymous on 2021/05/06 under Life I JUST FUQING HATE MY PARENTS,THEY BOTH ARE SO POLAR OPPOSITES … WHO THE FUQ EVER SAID THAT OPPOSITES ATTRACT IS SOO WRONG, OH BOY! THEY HAVEN'T SEEN MY PARENTS…. THEY AREN'T EVEN ANY INSPIRATION FOR ME NOR ARE MY ROLE MODELS NOR COULD I LOOK UP TO THEM WITH ANY PROUD OR ADORATION, AND SEE ONE CHARACTER TRAIT I INHERITED FROM THEM THAT I AM SO HAPPY AND PROUD OF…. UGHH THEY MAKE ME FEEL SO DISGUSTED…. THEY DON'T EVEN CARE!! THEY ARE SO MOODY AND IMPULSIVE AND INDECISIVE , YOU KNOW SOMETIMES WHEN YOU LOOK UP TO YOUR PARENTS AND NO MATTER WHAT AND WHO THEY ARE, YOU FIND ONE QUALITY YOU INHERITED FROM THEM THAT MAKES YOU SOO HAPPY PROUD, WELL I NEVER REALLY HAD THAT MOMENT… I JUST LOOK AT THEM AND GO " OH GOD…" , THEY ACT LIKE THEY NEVER HAD ANY TIME BEFORE MARRIAGE TO BE THEMSELVES, BE HAPPY AND ARE JUST CONSTANTLY PUSHED FROM ONE situation TO ANOTHER….. MY DAD ALWAYS COMPLAINS, BLAMES THEN QUITS, HE DOESN'T EVEN FUQING FIGHT AND MY MOM IS SOOO WEAK SHE NEVER EVEN STANDS UP FOR HERSELF AND CRIES FOR EVERYTHING, … THEIR INFERIORITY COMPLEX, INSECURITIES, THEM BEING NOT INTERESTED OR PASSIONATE ABOUT A FUQING SINGLE THING JUST DISGUSTS ME NOW!! " LOSERS" THAT'S WHAT I SEE WHENEVER I LOOK AT THEM…. OR WHENEVER I LOOK AT THEM I FEEL LIKE THEY STILL DON'T KNOW HOW TO RAISE A CHILD, WHY DID THEY EVEN BOTHER TO PRODUCE 2 FUQING CHILDREN THEN?? THEY STILL HELD ONTO THINGS LIKE THEY DIDN'T HAVE A GOOD CHILDHOOD, THEY DIDN'T HAVE THIS AND THAT, AND LIFE IS ALWayS UNFAIR TO THEM, THIS PERSON TREATED HIM/her LIKE THAT, THEY DIDN'T GET SUCCESS, I AM LIKE " OH JUST SHUT THE HELL UP, YOU HAVE TO FIGHT AND STRUGGLE, FREEDOM AND SUCCESS ISN'T SERVED IN THE SILVER PLATE AND FED TO YOU BY SILVER SPOON, JUST MAN OR WOMAN THE HECK UP!OH WAIT ,YOU DON'T HAVE EVEN PASSION FOR ONE FUQING THING ON EARTH!YOU JUST DON'T LOVE ANYTHING OR ANYBODY!WHAT WILL YA EVEN FIGHT FOR?" THEY SHOULD'VE REALLY SORT THEMSELVES OUT BEFORE HAVING ME AND MY BRO, ELSE I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN GETTING SO TOXIC , DEPRESSING VIBES, NEGATIVE VIBES…MY MOM IS TOO WEAK AND MY DAD , WELL HE'S AN IDIOT, I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW ANYONE CAN REALLY MARRY THIS GUY AND BE WITH HIM FOR THIS MANY YEARS??? AND THEN I SEE MY MOM AND GO LIKE " OH RIGHT… I FORGOT SHE EXISTED -_-….." I FEEL SO BAD THAT I WOULD BE A BIG LOSER LIKE THEM.NO I WONT….I . JUST.WON'T….. MY CO-DEPENDENCY, I NEED TO SORT THIS OUT MYSELF, MY DEPRESSION, MY INSECURITIES, MY EVERYTHING I WILL FIX THEM MYSELF! WHEN A DOG BIT ME, I REMEMBER I WAS SO SMALL BELOW 10 YEARS OF AGE, MY DAD BEAT ME , BLAMED ME, YELLED ME, INSULTED ME, JUST BECAUSE HE HAS TO DRIVE ME TO THE HOSPITAL AND PAY FOR THINGS AND ROAM HERE AND THERE FOR ME IN THE HOSPITAL.LAZY ASS. HE DIDN'T EVEN CARE THAT IT WAS STREET DOG AND I COULD'VE DIED , ALL HE CARS ABOUT IS HIMSELF, LAZY ASS. HIS ACTIONS HURTED ME MORE THAN THAT DOG'S BITE! WHEN I GOT B GRADE IN MATHS, HE TRIED TO BEAT ME WITH HIS BELT, I WAS IN A CORNER SO I COULDN'T REALLY GET HURT, I GOT FULL MARKS IN A LANGUAGE -HE NEVER REALLY PRAISED ME OR TREATED ME, COMPARED ME WITH OTHER CHILDREN, I HAD SOME PROBLEMS GROWING UP , I WAS MENTALLY DEPRESSED AND ALL THAT STUFF AS A TEEN, I TOLD MY PARENTS BUT THEY BRUSHED IT OFF AS NOTHING, IN FACT THEY USED IT ALL TO MAKE A JOKE OUT OUT OF IT, NEVER REALLY HELPED ME DEAL WITH IT, I STILL KEPT ON HOPING MAYBE I WAS WRONG , THEY ARE NICE PARENTS BUT THEY JUST USED MY PROBLEMS TO INSULT AND HURT ME, SUCH LOSERS!! THEY NEVER REALLY HELPED ME, INFACT THEY VICTIM-BLAMED HOW I WAS IN WRONG NOT HOW BAD MY PROBLEMS WERE, MY DAD KEPT ON BRAGGING ABOUT HOW MUCH HE PAID AND SPENT MONEY FOR ME ALL MY LIFE, MY MOM KEPT ON RAISING HER HAND, SHE DOES IT TO THIS DATE AND TELLS ME I AM SUCH AN LOSER AND UNGRATEFUL B****… THEY TAKE OUT ALL THEIR PENT UP EMOTIONS ON ME, I WANT TO SCREAM AT THEM AND TELL THEM 'I AM NOT YOUR FUQING TOY!!' and they're like you are our daughter , this body , your existence is because of us , so we can do whatever we want with it,you don't have a fuqing say or right in it, but we do have!.. THEY HAVE PROBLEM WITH EACH AND EVERYTHING, I WANT TO BE FAR FROM THEM, I NEED A BREAK, THEY'RE THE WORST, I HATE THEM SO MUCH!! AND MY BROTHER , OH THAT LIL RAT ASS, HE ACTS LIKE I AM LIVING OFF ON HIs MONEY, AND HE'S A HEAVENLY CREATURE AND I SHOULD BE GRATEFUL AND KISS THE GROUNG HE WALKS, LIKE I OWE HIM MY BREATHING! OH HOW WRONG YOU ARE RAT… JUST COME INTO MY HANDS ONCE, AND I AM GONNA SHOW YOU THAT YOU DON'T FUQING MESS WITH ME…NAH,NAH,NAH *TSK TSK TSK*
YES I WILL GET AWAY FROM THEM, WILL JUST VISIT THEM RARELY, I DON'T WANT TOXICITY IN MY LIFE , AND I AM GONNA FIX THE MESS THEY MADE, I AM IN A LOT OF FAULT TOO, BUT THEY PLAY A VERY BIGGER ROLE THAN MINE'S………… F*** OFF B****ES!
IDC ABOUT THEM, I DON'T REALLY LIKE THEM.. I DON'T FEEL ATTACHED TO THEM AT ALL!