Posted by Anonymous on 2020/04/29 under Life No matter how hard I try I always end up back in square one. And I absolutely can't stand myself anymore. I'm so pathetic. I'm a try hard. I just wanna die. I can't do this anymore. It's like I pour so much of myself out, wanting to do better and be better and my freshman year comes back to bite me in the ass. I cannot run from my past mistakes. It all adds up. I can never do better. I even told myself that I wouldn't care and that what was happening had nothing to do with me. And that it was all corrupt so why would I want be apart of that but look. I'm crying, I am depressed and I'm insecure. I let people who don't even know me define my purpose and I don't ever see myself not doing that. Everyone is better than me. i have no equals. All I can do is learn and not help anyone. I can't even get into a good college anymore. Where do I get opportunities like the one I was given. I hate myself!!!!!!!!
Hey,
You are doing great! So what if you realize that you want to do better. Then you do just that. It’s not the end now it’s only the beginning. I f***ed up so hard my freshman year. I turned it all around and you can too! You can do it! Honestly college is an expensive joke. If you want to go then go. Going to a community college you get the same peace of paper from an IV league or private college. I wish I could take it all back and get a health tech degree from a community college. X-ray, nursing, ultrasound, EEG, MRI, vascular or even speech therapy. They all start out at very good pay. You can do better and you will. Don’t ever give up. You got this. Keep your head up, life is hard you are going to be tougher. But you got this!
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