Posted by Anonymous on 2020/01/27 under Life When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. -Corinthians 13:11 Adulting is difficult and doesn't come easy. We ALL make mistakes and struggle in our own ways. Hopefully we learn from the mistakes and keep going. There are no perfect human beings out there. I have been through so much, and I accept all that has happened to me, the good and the bad. If both didn't happen than I honestly can't say that I have truly lived. Also, what truly is "good" or "bad"? They were words created by society to label normal from not normal. Anyway, off track. Life is f***ing ugly and that's alright. There can also be so much beauty too. Beauty that brings you to your knees and makes you cry. The thing about life I find the best is that it always goes on, even after you're dead. With my very religious up bringing I was taught that there was an afterlife. We were to not question this thought placed in our young growing minds, so I didn't. I thought that after we died it went on for eternity. Yeah, that stupid f***ing word. I now know that's a selfish way of thinking and came to closure with death. It was also a way to promote right and wrong doings(control the masses). Do wrong and you go to hell do right and there is a righteous, heavenly palace waiting for you. I now understand that all of my actions have consequences and they affect others around me. Like throwing a stone into a lake. There is a ripping effect to every action made. That is why I now analysis my actions. I take responsibility for my actions. Past and present-time actions. All of my actions and decisions are my own. I learn from my wrongs and I only try to do right because of freewill and because of the golden rule. Ever if my mind is not in the right place my heart surely is. I am not perfect but I am trying to be the best version of me. I also need to remember an idle mind is dangerous.