Somewhere To Write

Posted by Anonymous on 2018/12/18 under Life

I use to love Christmas as it had some magical appeal to it! In a since, I still love Christmas as I hold on to this memory and ideal. But the fact is, when it comes to Christmas, my mind is all over the place as I see the many wrongs of society and live now.

For examples:

I have never had an income above $25,000.00 per year, and when you take out all of the TYRANT Government Theft's (TAXES, Mandates, SS, Medicare, whatever they feel like thieving) then my annual take home income was around $19,000.00 per year. Then stores and anything else you buy takes away more money in the form of Tyrant Sales and FEE TAXES of all various natures. So at minimum, Out of $25,000.00 gross, after all the taxes, I am lucky to live for 365 days of each year on $17,000.00.

This has been going on, and my way of life for over 40 years. Barely making it! As the above $17,000.00 does not include paying bills, paying mortgage, car payments, gas, water, phone, insurance or food. God help me if I need a new set of tires, and I guarantee you cars do not last 40 years if you use them daily. So for the last 40 years I have lived paycheck to paycheck.

My big break was suppose to come when I went to college at age 35! I worked hard and long for my degree and I truly believed all those brainwashing commercials that show someone going to college and graduating, then getting that dream job where they can sit on easy street and make lots of money doing some non physical job….AND LIVE A BETTER LIFE! It was about time too, my body was starting to show all the years of hard labor, not to mention the asbestos, broken bones, spider bites, injuries, suffering extreme wet-cold and hot-130 degrees, etc….. due to the bosses crack of the whip and order of “GO DO YOUR JOB OR YOUR FIRED” Show up exhausted, lack of sleep, sick, tired or your fired, work 12 hour days or your fired, be here in the morning ready for more! By the way your on call tonight! Up at 4:30 am home at 7:00 or later.

FIRED! I have been fired quite a few times and it was never pretty as I always tried to sand on the side of wright and (over) the wrongs of bosses orders and demands. I never took all the BS they gave out as you will read. You will also find out in a bit I went to college and graduated while working these jobs, but until then while in college I did grunt work as to make ends meet and pay the bills.

In example, One boss, though I was hired to do industrial maintenance (Blue collar job), tried to tell me that included IT work as well. You know (what I was going to college for- IT/PC, programming, database, network, etc/$35.00 per hour white collar jobs) .

I DID That for one year thinking it would show my abilities in my college training, and open me a position as they had no in-house tech and over 200 workstations, pc, server, networks, and wireless connections. I was also the one on call 24-7 for IT and my regular maintenance job as well.

One year latter they told me that all along, (Prior) that they had some outside firm contracted for all their issues and needs (but it cost them each time they used them), and all my efforts were appreciated but not reconsidered. One year later, My pay raise was 3 months late, and they gave me $0.10 cents on the hour raise.
Then one day the Boss told me to go trouble shoot and Fix a PC Workstation that went down. I REFUSED AND THEY FIRED ME SAYING IT WAS MY JOB TO DO IT!

Other bosses have told me to fill out paperwork and sign their names, then they listed me as falsifying documents in their names.
That is the sort of s*** I tolerated in my lifetime, just to have a piss poor job to pay the bills and survive!

Now I sit here at 55 and I will not begin to tell you of the shape I am in. But with a college degree in IT, I have no Job! No job period for the past five years! My Heart, body aches, physical ability to stand and walk, lift, its all gone or pending a future Major blowout/ heart attack or stroke, diabetes, and now PTSD thanks to watching the X-wife stab herself and etc. I am always in pain if I walk more than 300 feet in some faster than normal snails pace (I’ve had a bad hip for the past 15 years). I seen it all coming early on as I had all the same symptoms as my father who had to have his leg amputated because of this. Its genetically hereditary, diabetes, heart attacks, strokes, deteriorating bones, etc! Thats why I went to college and THOUGHT I was making a easier and better life for myself. But now, at my age, in my condition, my appearance, my over/under qualified education. whatever reasons, no one will hire me!

So I love it when I hear that someone got fired from their job, more so, someone who fired me or from a job in which I quit. But what really irritates me (call me jealous and full of envy and venom) is when I see on the news someone was fired and will not receive their severance package of $120 million dollars. WHAT THE F**K?

I have basically killed my walking and able body for the past 40 years (only to now suffer poorly) and have only reached a life time mile stone of income of $1,000,000.00 (One Million). I am now practically penny-less, on food stamps, college degree, etc. And someone who would normally leave their job, will get $120 million under normal circumstances for retiring or being fired unconditionally. Makes me wonder how much they made/make annually while they worked their job? 200 Million a year maybe?

One person making 200 times the amount of money in one year, that has taken me a life time of 40 to reach!
(200,000,000.00 X 40) = $8,000,000,000.00 EIGHT F***EN BILLION DOLLARS for 40 years of working -service?
Who am I talking about? Every large executive, politicians, etc. but more specifically:
Former CBS boss Les Moonves denied $120m exit pay.
https://www.bbc.com/news/business-46599490

I would have to work a calculated 320,000 years to reach that income. What is so piss poor and sadistic about it is the fact that there are millions of people just like me in the same boat and worse. Poverty! And just one man, sitting on his ass and producing or telling others which TV shows and commercials to promote and show or who to hire is making $200 million a year. How many more big executives are there just like him?

Yet the majority of the world, is sitting at home wondering if they should break the law and go without car insurance or put food on the table. But you have to have insurance to drive a car to work! But that is only if they go without food or quality food, they starve.

Then the government acts like they are doing me some big favor giving me $172.00 in food stamps for a month and invades all aspects of my life, just to make sure I am not scamming them, as if I am lazy and don't want to work? Thats also societies view of people on food stamps. We are all undeserving poor lazy people, able bodies. Yet the Government gives out $$$ Billions to some foreign country, no forms to fill out, no quarterly investigations, no verification (A GIFT from my country to yours, so freely given) as if they are more deserving than I and many others.

Yes, I guess the truth is I could work in my hard earned college degree, but no longer a physical body grunt work, nor a gofer running around all day stocking shelves, I cant even lift in fear of my heart blowing out! But lets not forget my present financial situation! I am now broke and can barely make an electric bill payment each month. No Job, no Income. But here a paradox of that problem.

The law says you have to have car insurance if you drive your car on the streets. When you are broke you cant afford car insurance so the government takes away your car tags. Good luck driving without them as Cops have laser scanners that scan your license plate and automatically tells them which cars to pull over. Plus the Tyrant Government (for the People) list your car and tags in the government database for the police to scan as they drive down the road. You are already breaking the law and their laser scanner is picking up your revolked tags. That bar code on your license plate has a purpose.

SO HOW CAN I DRIVE TO AN JOB INTERVIEW, MUCH LESS START ANY JOB!????????

Oh, after college, I looked and I applied for jobs, I went on over 40 Job interviews over the two year period, before I gave up due to being broke! I admit I was not working after I graduated as I was doing an internship with the promise of a job. That feel through 4 months before I graduated! So I waited out the 4 month term. After that no job, but I felt I would find a job in my new career as I had over 4 years internship. SOMEWHERE, SOMEONE IS BOUND TO HIRE ME. SO I Remained unemployed as its hart to go on job interviews while working in common jobs that demand you be at work or be fired.

Still, It gets very costly to drive 80 miles round trip to over 60 job dead end job interviews. Especially when your savings budget is $4,000.00 and I still had to eat and pay bills until that dream job presents itself. Its not a cake walk for a new College graduate to find a job they are qualified for, or one you feel confident they can handle. The last thing any college career minded individual wants is to commit career suicide by taking on a job they cant to. Its also very hard to find a company that will pick you out of 50,000 fresh college graduates of the year.

50,000! That is just a guess of annual college graduates from a rather small state.
Thats the one thing Colleges, the commercial, businesses, society, never mentions. There is a fresh pool of over 50,000 to 250,0000 (maybe more pending what state you live in) of fresh, young, college graduates each year. Not every state has that many low end white collar to Executive job openings.

So I SIT HERE BROKE, ON FOOD STAMPS, WITH A COLLEGE DEGREE, TRYING TO SELL MY TRUCK OFF ON CraigsLIST, Just so I will have money to pay for electricity and winter Gas heat. I HAVE NO HEALTH Insurance, Rotten teeth as I cant make it to the dentist, and food stamps wont buy tooth paste or soft fluffy paper to wipe my ass. No laundry detergent to wash my clothes as to make a good impression at any fantasy job interview I might get the privilege of wasting any time and money on, just to never hear from them. Then no gas money or car (due to lack of car insurance) even if I did.

I guess I could try to coordinate about 4 job interviews per day for a week, hope they all accommodate my plan and planned schedule, play the numbers, lie about my qualifications and hope they overlook my lack of employment for the past 5 years, plus my poor quality appearance and physical abilities. Less my skills are in need of polishing due to the lack of repetition work (if you don't use it you loose it). Still, if I can mange 20 interview in one week and play the numbers, MAYBE….. just MAYBE after about 2 weeks, I might get an Email telling me they chose someone else.

No. its always worked out, one job interview out of 10 applications, wait 2 weeks and find out they hired someone else. Move on to the next 10 potential jobs and hope one wants an interview. But wait! Can we make it a phone interview, I cant drive there, no car, no money, no way to get there even if you hire me!
Can I get a sign on Bonus or months advance Pay?

And meanwhile (while my JOBLESS TIME CLOCK is ticking away, and the elect company is massaging their hands until they cut my lights off) some Big $200 million a year Executive is going home without $120 million in severance pay as he tried to get laid by some ungrateful b**** that thinks just because she is pretty she should get an easy ticket in life.

AWWWW! My HEART BLEEDS. Hes should be a President Donald Trump Billionaire by now. And I hope that wannabe movie star is on skid row living a crack heads life and getting raped by someone with aids and other STDs. Last time I seen how the Gratuitous job market works, it was quid-pro-quo (you scratch my back and I scratch yours) aka some ungrateful b****.
Hell as a straight guy, for $200 million a year, I would give the guy a blow job and let him dry ass f*** me. And never think twice!

Merry f***ing Christmas.

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