Posted by Anonymous on 2017/10/26 under Life i am fine without people, but you are my happy pill. i say i am fine because i won't expect a certain level to be. just the fact that we are what we are, and what we are willing to be.
i've reached a certain pinnacle in my being. something that tells me to never breach within. i know this to be the truth now. i get past the fires of my past ,knowing that there are things i cannot change no matter how hard i try.
not discarding what's mine or lessons that i have yet to gain and understandings to open, wisdom to share.
though there is a certainty in the way we feel pain. and that is to me sometimes to be, it is what it is, whatever the heart sees, unbeknownst to me. i just have to trust it.
i got past a threshold. past the point of no return, sadly, and ecstatically, it's a melancholy state driven by divine sparks of white light.
i guess that's what it means, you can't really cut parts of yourself out no matter how much you try to change, dislike or disown them. you have to learn to live with it. and maybe forget about the way you feel for a while so that the wounds heal and then you can look back and just remember the entirely of a situation as whole, not so much fragmented and affecting you to a point of halt, maybe that's what it is…
and i believe in being real with people. no matter how uncomfortable it maybe for some to hear it. because when you keep stuff like that from people, they will still feel it, and truth always comes out. no matter what.
i have no desire to go back to what was, because it no longer exists. i have come to realize this truth over and over again. we get stuck in these places, due to our unique travels. how did we get here. how did we allow ourselves to get here. that's where we unwind from. and we accept, we don't have to feel contempt or hate. and just because we love doesn't mean we want more than what we can get.