Posted by Anonymous on 2017/09/26 under Life I decided abortion was the best when I was 17. I didn't think I'd regret it as much as I do. But… it was my only option.I hate that now I know I am going be be with the the father of that child for the rest of my life and I wish we had the ability to keep our child. It kills me that when we have kids I will know that we are missing one because of poor timing. I wish I was able to tell my parents. they still don't know. I wish never saw the picture of my baby before it was ripped from me. I wish I didn't have to make that decision. I wish people accepted abortion. I wish the world was accepting enough for me to be able to not feel scared or ashamed to tell my story. I hope one day I have the strength to tell it. I thought time would heal me but I feel so stuck. Im glad I made the decision I did but I regret it at the same time. The what ifs kill me. Knowing I could have a baby rn hurts me. I just knew I needed to go to school first so I could provide for my children. I didn't want them to suffer or not get the best or what they need and deserve. I just wish people understood. But… NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ABORTION UNLESS THEY HAVE GONE THROUGH IT…. I wish people would acknowledge that.
I remember mine to this day. I felt the guilt and the shame that came along with it. The thing is, we can’t go back and change things. We can remember, learn from it and learn to live with it. We can make amends with ourselves, forgive us for whatever prompted us to make the decisions.