Posted by Anonymous on 2012/03/01 under Uncategorized I’m so sorry America. I’ve let you down. I’ve taken advantage of you. I’ve let you become a mess. I’ve been scared. I lie to myself. I lie to others. I’m full of myself. I’m act proud. I’m truly ashamed. I wanted to be everything you want. I wanted to be your shining light. I believe in you. I know what you want from me, I’m too selfish and afraid to give it. You’ve given me so many opportunities. I’ve let them just fall away. I accept the challenge but never put in the work. I pray that you will just see me pretending I’m trying, then just give it to me. As if I was a child. I’ve never tried hard a single day in my life. I’ve never enjoyed a single victory. I’ve never taken my body or mind to the brink of exhaustion. You wanted a warrior. You wanted a leader. I was never there for you. I was a spoiled, lazy child. Taking, lying and cheating. I’m so sorry. When I see the flag, or hear the national anthem, I cry because I am ashamed. I feel so small. So ashamed I couldn’t be more for you. They think I cry because I am proud. Then it just feeds my f***ing ego that they think I’m proud of where I’m from. It’s all shame. I wish writing this would help me change. I wish when I felt like this, you could pick me up and show me how I can stop being like this. How I could become something better. But, that’s just more of the same s*** that got me where I am today. Looking for a mother to wipe my ass and give me food. I’m so sorry America.
I am so f***ing sorry.