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Posted by on 2012/02/06 under Uncategorized

I have managed to dig myself into a hole that I can’t seem to get out of.. I have the person I am with. All I end up doing is caring about their feelings, health, thoughts,etc…. I need to stop with the crazy stuff and start remembering how valuble I am! I am a good woman looking for someone to treat her with love and kindness. The person I am with is selfish, controlling, stupid, mean, nasty, evil, thinks the world owes her and revolves around her. I am over this but I can’t leave. I have hit rock bottom. I need to get my license back, I need to get a job, I need to lose weight, I need to work on my self-esteem, I need to realize I am a good person and I can make a difference. I need to get some money up and move on. I am alone in this world. My parents are died. My sister and brother do not talk to me. I have managed to keep away all my friends and family. I feel like a loser and I am not. I have good in me. This stupid person in my life always wants me to do for her but she doesn’t want to do anythiong for me. What has happen to me to bring me to this????? What happen to me??? Why did I allow this to happen to me??? I miss my old girlfriend. I can’t even find her to see if she is single, missing me or what a mistake that would be. I need to tell people I am sorry for what I did. I am sorry that I am a F**k up and need help. I need to talk to someone to figure out if it is me or my choices in life. NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME, MY FEELINGS,MY THOUGHTS AND MY LIFE. GOD, PLEASE HELP ME AND HEAR MY PRAYER. I NEED YOU RIGHT NOW. I NEED YOUR TOUCH, YOUR GUIDANCE, YOUR WISDOM, AND YOUR GRACE. AMEN. THANK YOU JESUS FOR BEING MY LORD AND SAVIOR.
Thank you for listening. I feel a little better.

2 thoughts on “05-02-12(19:49:43)

  1. Mia says:

    You’re kinda like me. Care so much for others, we forget to care about ourselves. Caring so much comes at a cost. It can tear you down to just your bear bones. It’s what it’s done to me. But I still care and still move on. Why, well that I can’t tell you. Because, well i don’t know why I get up every morning. But I do. Do what makes YOU happy. Not her not anyone else, YOU. That’s the first step. First make yourself happy. Then move on others but remember that it’s selfish to once in awhile put yourself first. Because, 95% of the time were trying to make other happy. There is a quote i saw one day. it’s from Bill Cosby. He said, “I don’t know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.” You can do it. I know you can. Granted I don’t know you. Or at least I don’t believe i do. I know that with work and positive outlook anyone can do anything. Yes, it’s so much easier said than done. Things happen for a reason. Yes, i know its cliche but it’s true. The catch to that is. The reason doesn’t always come right away in black and white. It takes time, sometimes, But it’s there. I know this is extremely long and i’m sorry. But You’re not alone by any means. I’m kinda going through the same thing. Sorry for being so long.

  2. Mia says:

    it’s not selfish*******************

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