I pray to a god I don’t believe in, for who am I to rely on in this world? I’m not against him, but I just don’t know what decision to make. I pray for my life to get better, but it’s not life’s fault, it’s my point of view that ruins it. I dream of dying, my mom is stressed, my best friend (dog) is at risk of dying, my family has mental illness problems, i have two best friends in the world that i love so much that i am not willing to trust because i can’t trust anyone for what they have done to me, I love my dad so much, I would’t want to see him upset when i’m dead that’s the only thing keeping me alive. Thanks mom and dad 🙂