every day is just a pain to live through. I see you in everywhere i go, its like im being tormented by your memories. I don’t know what else to do, i feel like i do not deserve this. i love you so much it breaks my heart to pieces, and everyday i pick them all one by one. Im not sure how long it will last. i felt robbed and it was not fair. I gave you all, and it is you i still want, but how? i don’t know.why u never fought for me, why u never fought for us. I am very scared that maybe you will lose me. and i am very terrified to lose you, but i don’t know. how come we will end like this, i feel lost. i feel it hurts to f***ing live this way so much, for all that i have been through, i dont think i deserve this much.