Posted by Anonymous on 2014/08/12 under Uncategorized I WANT TO BELIEVE THAT THE WAY I AM IS JUST THE WAY IT GOES. FOR THE THINGS THAT CAME, NOT THE THINGS I CHOSE TO COME. I WANT TO KNOW IF I HAD ANY CONTROL. I WANT TO KNOW IF IT COMFORT ME. SOMETIMES I LIKE TO THINK THAT IM CAPABLE OF PARALLEL GALAXIES AND THAT MY METHAMPHETAMINE ADDICTION IS THE LEAST OF MY PROBLEMS. MAYBE I JUST FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF TOO MUCH AND TOO OFTEN. I WISH I COULD JUST FIND SOMEONE RELATEABLE.. THEN AGAIN I DO BELIEVE THAT I FEEL EMOTIONS DEEPER THAN THE AVERAGE PERSON, WHICH IS A DISADVANTAGE FOR ME 90% OF THE TIME… IM REALLY HUNGRY AND NEED TO GET READY TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL TO SEE ME SISTER WHO WAS INVOLVED IN A DEADLY SHOOTING THE OTHER DAY IN ALBUQUERQUE NEW MEXICO. IT WAS AT A CAR DETAILING SHOP, SHE WAS SHOT FOUR TIMES AND SURVIVED. THANK F***ING JESUS CHRIST.IVE BEEN UP ALL NIGHT SMOKING METH AND WEED HAHA WATCHING MY TRANSSEXUAL SUMMER ON YOUTUBE AND BEING A COMPLETE DOUCHE BAG. IM ONLY GOOD ENOUGH FOR THE UGLY OLD PERVERTS. YOUNGER MORE ATTRACTIVE GUYS DONT WANT TO BE SEEEN WITH ME OUT IN PUBLIC WHICH UPSETS ME. IM JUST A FANTASY FOR, A DIRTY LITTLE F***ING SECRET THAT WOULD KILL THEM THE SECOND SOMEONE FOUND OUT ABOUT IT- CRUSHING AND ELIMINATING HIS EGO. OH HOW WONDEROUS THAT SOUNDS AND YET INEVITABLE. I WISH I COULD SEEK MY REVENGE AND PLAY HIM BLIND LIKE HOW HE DID ME. HIS NARCISISSTIC ASS WOULDNT EVEN SEE ME COMING WITH THE SCHEME THAT IVE CREATED. ANYMORE IM EXHAUSTED IN ALL ASPECTS OF MY WELL BEING. IVE COME TO A PPOINT WHERE SELF LOATHING IS AT ITS PEAK IN STRENGTH; ONLY TEARING ME DOWN MORE EXTENSIVELY..