Posted by Anonymous on 2014/08/07 under Uncategorized I love you with a love that has never existed on the face of this planet and I know you feel the same way. That’s why I know this is not an easy decision for you. But the fact remains that traveling to a beautiful tropical island and more importantly having the opportunity to live there and earn really good money was your dream before you even knew I existed. The thing that is literally destroying me from within is the emotional turmoil that I am feeling. Wanting the best for you means wishing for the most perfect thing that has happened to me to just cease to be. And conversely, wanting to have you in my life means I must wish for your dreams to be destroyed. If it was just about feelings it would be OK. Thing is we both know (as does almost every person who knows me) that I always get what I wish for. Always. So what in the name of all that is sacred do I wish for? I am not capable of just sitting back and going with the flow, my mind just does not operate like that… I’m going to be focusing on the outcome and the options are carving up my soul.