Posted by Anonymous on 2014/08/06 under Uncategorized We were together for 1 year and 3 months. Nearing our year and a half in which we were so excited. A week after the 15th month of being together, you ended it. You “fell out of love with me”. It wasn’t what you wanted anymore. Fine, I respect that. But see it from my eyes and know that I will never give up on us. It’s been 3 months since you ended it and I know who I am, what living without you is like and it is not what I want. I want you. I know I do. Yes, you were my first and “I will love again”. I can’t see the fun in that. I want to love you and only you. I don’t care about how many people I’ve made love to, you were my first and I want you to be my last. I was your second. You told me I was your best. You told me to stay with you. You was scared I would let you go. You told me to wait until your exams were over so we could spend Summer and Paris together. But, you ended it before your exams. Giving me false hope. I don’t care, it’s what you wanted and I’m happy you think you’ve done well in your exams. It’s now nearing the end of Summer and you could be going to Uni 1 hour away from here with a new life, meeting new guys, forgetting about me, even though you’ve said you’ll never forget me… You will. What I don’t get is when you said I wasn’t what you wanted but you also said you don’t know what you want. I can be what you want, I will make you realise this is what you want. You said it to me before, what changed? You said it wasn’t me and that it was you. Do you not see how unfair that is?! I hate that I love you. I hate that I can’t let you go when you’re doing it just fine. I’ve asked for one more shot and you refuse. I get the feeling you don’t even think about it and just impulsively say “No.” You’ve met someone who you think will fill your needs, but the same will happen again. This time, I won’t be there for you, I’ll be telling you what you told me. Move on. It’s never going to work between you two again. It’s over. Forget the idea. Those words are gunna hurt but maybe you’ll realise what you put me through.
I hate myself for loving you. But it’s all I want.
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was married 18years and together 23. and im in the same boat.
It’s crazy how people can just turn their feelings, am I right?
Worse when they provide an answer as to why but it doesn’t make sense and you don’t wanna cause anything else so you just accept it. My reaction to the world and everyday is “meh”.