Posted by Anonymous on 2018/11/20 under Kids God, Sister Claire is still gone and I found the remote I accused her of stealing. I was terribly undecided about it, indetertiminate and uncertain. I am a bit embarassed and humiliated and ashamed that I accused her of this but at the same time it opened some valves of discussion that THE FAMILIAR has been ignoring for a long time. She neeeds to know that she doesn't have the right to lord over the members of THE FAMILIAR. That she does not have authority and that the IRS will get involved if she continues to act the way she does. It is jusst not a fact. The experience that has been taking place. It is all an illusion. And she has just been draining the internet for all the things that a person is supposed to provide on their own. She doesn't accept that she was diagnosed with a schizophrenia. She thinks she's getting monies because the government owes her for giving her abilify the prescription. And blaming every one except herself. At the same time, this is a no-fault illness to have. At the same time, as members of THE FAMILIAR we can only bear so much of the burden of her illness and we might need professionals at the academic level to deal with her trauma, psychosis, paranoia and rage. We are not equipped and we are too personal to her. She uses many fear tactics and manipulates us in that we are THE FAMILIAR to her but she is only hurting herself. The thing that frightens me is that there are some people who just never learn. And there are parts of her that are pure zombie, completely unaware of themselves. I care about her very much. She taught me howw to read and write, and also how to steal and disobey, and disregard the parents of THE FAMILIAR. Which is good for adolescence but she never learned how to become a functioning adult child. She is still so cruel to M. and to her other siblings and Dad. This is not my problem anymore, but being that we now love(?) live in the same home, there are some things that need to be addressed and take place. It is so strange becoming this role, but I have good icons I've learned from. Mentors? I don't know. Just observees, perhaps. I pray that this situation finds pause and clairty in the mean time. And I'd like the Holy Spirit to protect Me from responding to the ugly way she addresses THE FAMILIAR. Pray that I discover a method of God that allows for complete surrender and powerlessness in the face of my adversary. And guide Beth towards an understanding of herself. Remember, if one hurts themself, they hurt me. But then again, I can only keep my sidelessness of the street clean. If God can help me, he can help anyone. I love God, God. Please bring to light the righteousness of Gods will. I am powerless in the face of it, and so is every other living space being. In Jesus name, I prayerfullness, -The Archer