Posted by Anonymous on 2021/01/02 under Family May 23, 2020 He claimed that since when I started having different ideas from young age and refused to open up, so he wouldn't know about it. Hence he was unable to guide me (what he meant was, he was actually going suppress it). Made a comparison about being left handed/right handed and compared that to left hand/right hand side driving to explain why there has to be order. Understood Made unscientific claims about homosexuals and claims that they are gay because they afraid to meet opposite sex. Assumed I've "joined the gays" which I assume means that I'm now gay or I joined a cult. Wonder if he realises that simply agreeing that humans have the same rights regardless of their sexuality or opposing mistreatment of people over their private sexual lives is NOT equivalent to being part of them or being in a cult. A sexual orientation is not a cult. He thinks I don't appreciate their efforts and sacrifices for my school fees. Read something I wrote on my Tumblr and jumped to that conclusion. Despite my writing also indicating that I'm useless and of no benefit to them. Conveniently spent little time on that part. Feels like a wasted 1hr 30mins of call where at the end he just did the usual, proselytize his religion on me, even after seeing that I have been "thinking about suicide". Before lastly telling me what to do about college admission.
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He then said that I had gone to the extreme end of the belief (I'm not sure what belief he's talking of, but if he's talking about my dropping of religion, being nonreligious is not extreme, otherwise we would have atheist terrorist groups instead and not Islamic terrorists for example).
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He went on to tell a story about two sons from a friend of his ("bishop Odubogun") one who is open and a reserved one to make a point about why I should be "assertive"
Looks like he forgot when I warned him that I couldn't retake the difficult electromagnetism and Continuum mechanics courses yet, for emotional reasons and instead forced me to enrol them or he would stop paying my fees. At the end of the day, his will stands. So, he really should stop claiming that I be assertive and it's useless. I have to obey his instructions anyway.
Except my point is slightly different. I disagreed with senseless cultural practices like forcing a left handed person to write on their own f***in* paper with their own f***in* pen with their right hand/weak hand. Or rejecting money money from someone or punishing someone for using their left hand to hand over something, especially when it was more practical (like if the right hand was busy example). Or teachers scolding me for learning to use my left hand to write. Unlike the traffic situation, choosing to do different here causes no disorder or danger.
Obviously that's not true else non-human mammals won't have homosexuals. Not to mention that successful homosexual business men (e.g Tim Cook) or successful OPENLY homosexual politicians (Pete Buttigieg) need to communicate and work with female co-workers and partners to get success in their fields. Also, I deliberately put the word "openly" in all caps to iterate that most homosexuals hide it and pretend to be straight and even have relationships with the opposite sex just to fruitlessly fit in. So, if their reason was because they're scared of the opposite sex, they'll mostly be open about it and not try to fit in.
And as usual, made wide generalisations about the LGBT community saying this "cult" is filled with people joining just for power and points to celebrities, without specifying which celebrity who joined for "power" and end up dying from drug overdoses. Meanwhile most celebrities are not even homosexual/bisexual. Or conveniently ignoring the people like Ellen who is married lesbian with a successful career in entertainment and has no drug issues or ignoring the non LGBT person's who die from the very same reasons. Drawing annoyingly wrong links in the name of his religion (this gives me more reasons to stay away from such a god)
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"You see, I don't believe parental love exist (at least, not for me). It's just parental responsibility (provide for the kids, protect them, pay their fees/financial support), child/dependant responsibility (obey your parents and follow their wishes regardless of yours) and then the discipline or seriousness to actually keep up with these responsibilities. It's like a business relationship. Guardians provide, dependants obey. Dependant will not be able to even survive without a guardian."
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^^That's what I posted which is basically an excerpt from one of the topics in this diary title "General" from the "probably last words" section.
So, he hasn't still figured out that I'm not in a good emotional state and lack interest in anything. Thinks I'm avoiding church simply because I don't want to when in reality, I find it hard to even get up in the morning, let alone go to church. Same happens with classes and many other activities I Actually have interest.
That's why I've taken forever to even start my petition letter to York University for a petition that'll likely not be accepted.
So, I guess realising that pushing his religion on me is only making me frustrated at his calls and making me tired of calling him.